What it's all about.

Today was a really good day. I woke up on the good side of bed this morning. It made it especially good because my boyfriend was there. In school we got parts to read out of a book. We are reading Romeo and Juliet. I am so excited. I didn't pick a big part. I picked a medium. So i am proud of myself. I don't really like to read out loud but i am really excited about reading the book, if that makes sense?

My friend Becca has diabetes and she had a very low blood sugar at school today. I got to spend almost the whole day in the office with her and talked to her and we hung out. I was texting the whole time. She couldn't because she got her phone taken away. She was eating donuts and M&M's the whole time to get her blood sugar up. She through away half of the donut though. She almost fainted when we went in the office the third time. She was dizzy and spacing off. Her cousin thinks that sense she always smokes weed she is having with drawls from not smoking a cigarette or weed anymore. She is trying to stop because of her asthma and everything going on in her life. She asked me to help her and i felt really important. We have only known each other for a little bit. I just moved here and she is already my best friend. But anyways, she almost fainted and we had to give her something to drink and eat... again!

My boyfriend texted me and i told him what was going on and he told us to give her food and something to eat. We went into the lunch room and got her some sugar things and she ate them. Becca was feeling fine after that. She cant miss any meals or that will happen to her. Her diabetes is really bad. Her dad has diabetes and it is really bad. Worse then Becca's.

I am so happy i have her in my life. I feel bad that she had to go through that today. I was the only one that was concerned and one of her best, BEST friends wasn't even concerned. That really made her really upset. I told her that it was okay, and maybe she doesn't really know what is going on. But she knew that her friend knew what was going on. I tried to make her feel better. I love helping people so i am glad i was there today.[:   

Things I love in life.

Laugh.
Smile.

See my boyfriend.

To see my family.
Save someone.
To help someone in need.
Read.

Blog.
Spending time with the people i love the most.
Learning new things.
Go to school.

To see someone happy.

Making someones day.

To talk on the phone.

Texting.

Meeting new people.

Watching movies with my boyfriend.

Spending one on one time with my mommy.

Talking.

Talking about my issues in life and what I'm going through.

Singing.

Writing.

Sleeping.

Eating.

Doing teenager things.

Going to the movies.

Going to concerts(Cant wait tell my boyfriend brings me to one!:D)

Party's!

Sleep overs.(hahaha)

Pajama day at school.! (hahah)

Slap ass Friday.

Nut tap Thursday.

Mondays suck ass but that is why i love it:]

Getting ready in the mornings.

Organizing things.

Planning things.

I love English class.

I kind of like worrying about things.. but at the same time i don't because i don't like to stress out.

I love being loved :]

I love to be on my computer and practice my typing and everything. Talk to friends and such.

And last but not least, I love my name and the way i am. I am unique and i am my own person. I am the only Jennifer Lynn Rose in the world that is like me. No one has my personality like mine. I am my own person. I love me. I love the way i am. I love everything about me beucase God made me this way. I love my life and everything/one in it. They make me who i am. My mistakes make me who i am today. So, I am proud of the person i am. I am me.

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Survivor(:

So it is kind of like a family tradition that we watch a show called Survivor. My mom and my boyfriend always fight about it Russel or Rupert get voted out. Today no one did. They made a bet if my Russel gets outmy boyfriend will have to make tacos. And if Rupert gets out then my mom has to make enchiladas. Either way its a win win for my boyfriend. Hha. He likes tacos and enchiladas. So, he isnt worried about anything. But neither of them got out so the bet was off.

I love my family they always make me laugh. Especially my boyfriend. He means the world to me. I know i say that about everyone in my life, becuase it's true, but he is something special in my life. He is my other half; my bestfriend; my everyting. They always make me laugh. My mom and my boyfriend are the only ones that can make me laugh so hard that i pee my pants. I almost made my mom cry and pee her pants in the doctors office when i was in there getting a check up. We were talking about how there was this house wrapped in tin fowel because they dont want the aliens to read there minds. haha. I dont believe tin fowel will stop them from reading there minds. And my boyfriend made a very good point. They didnt put tin fowel on there roof only on the sides of there house. Why would they read there minds from the sides? Hha i mean come on seriously? I dont really believe that we are going to be abducted my aliens or anything like that. I believe there might be another living life out there on an other planet but i dont think we will find it/ have proof there is another living speciece out there. Well not in my life time anyways. I dont belive the world will end on 2012. I do believe something dramatic will happen in that time but i doubt the world will end. I think that is rediculous.

But anyways i am getting off topic here. Hha. :] I love my boyfriend and i love my family and my mom. They make me laugh everyday. My favorite thing in life is to laugh. And be with my family:] i love you guys so much<33>

Taking a Risk.

April 28Th, 2010.

If you know me, you know my brother means the world to me. You would know that he is my everything in life. He is in 5Th grade and we are 4 years apart. I don't live with him anymore (and it kills me) and i never get to talk to him. I called him today and only got to talk to him for a second. I found out that he will have to repeat the 5Th grade because my dad and my step mother don't believe that he can get his grades up in 8 weeks. They are always putting him down and never telling him he does a good job. That was my job when i lived there. I was always telling him he could do it. He has ADHD and a learning disability. He has a hard time learning things and remembering things. So i try to help him. He is really good at all school subjects but he needs to focus more. He needs more attention then he gets. (I think)

When I called my little brother my dad picked up the phone. He asked me why did i hang up on Michelle(Step mom) when she picked up the phone. I hung up when the phone went to the awsering machine. She was yelling in the back round at my dad. She is the biggest bitch that i have ever met. When I talked to my little brother he told me that he couldn't come up for the summer. I was so angry. I knew something like this would happen because every time i want him to visit me it never happens. But whatever. I am so used to it. I am so happy that my boyfriend is in my life. He is here with me threw thick and thin. He held me while i cried and he gave me kisses and hugs. They both mean the world to me. I love them so much. He is always there. It is funny. When i cry my brother always does the same thing as my boyfriend. He comes in my bedroom and gives me a hug and kisses my cheat. They both wipe my tears off and tell me they love me. I love them both.

My brother and i used to fight a lot. Now we don't. Its not likely that we fight anymore. It is because we have gotten older and more mature. Anyways. I love him more then anything in the world. Everyone in my family means the world to me. Sometimes I feel like I am doing something wrong when I say something. For example, when i left the house my dad and step mom were yelling at me saying that it was my fault and that i did it to myself and my brother is going to miss me and i am going to regrate it. I have no clue what i did but i guess everything i do is wrong... Im not doing a pitty thing but sometimes... i hate my life.

Up Coming Blogs:

- Taking a risk

-What it's all about

-Happy endings?

-The love of my life

-What makes me happy

-You are all I ever needed

-Fall to pieces

Diary.

Friday. April 23, 2010.

Today was an okay day. I dropped off my boyfriend at his friends house, went to my grandparents and told my friend i would hang out with her but never did. I feel bad and i know come Monday I will get yelled at for it. There is no use for excuses.

Last night I watched some home videos that my mother took of my brother and I when we were younger. I always put my dad on a pedestal and thought he was the greatest man in the world. But now that i saw the videos, that all changed. I saw that he would yell at my brother and I for no reason at all. He would yell at my mom for her trying to talk to his friend. He yelled at me for saying i love you to my moms friend. I was/am very disapointed that I always thought that he was the greatest man alive. I never believed my mom when she told me that he was a mean man when i was younger. Untill now. My father did drugs and he was an alchoholic. He abused my mom all the seven years the were together. He went to jail when i was seven years old and my borther was about two years old. I remeber the day that he tried killing my mom. He was so drunk that he got this thought in his head that my mom was cheating on him. He was a very jealous man and always thought that my mom was going to cheat on him and she wasnt really in love with him, when she was. He got so jealous he tried killing my mom.

Everything is coming together now. Maybe my mom isnt the bad person. I mean i never thought she was, I just always thought that my dad was the "truth" and he didnt do anything wrong. Now that I am older and more muture i understand most of everything in my life. My mom and I's relationship has grown stronger since i moved back with her. I think the time that we spent apart really helped our relationship. I love my mom with all my heart. She is amazing.

I told my step dad last night that he is going to walk me down the ile at my wedding when i get older. I really mean that too. He has been more of a dad to me then my actual father has. My older sister said the same thing to my grandma when she was my age. I thought that was pretty sad that all my dads kids (5) think the same thing. My older brother, Michael, dislikes my dad alot, for his own reasons. Him and i fight alot but that doesnt mean that we dont talk. My next oldest brother, Ryan, well he is a shy person. He doesnt like my step mom, Michelle, no one does, but he is always nice to people he doesnt like. My littler brother, Johnathan, dislikes my step mom very much. He would always come crying in my room when Michelle would yell at him or he would get into trouble. She uped his dose on his ADHD pills. He gets this glaze over his eyes when they get into affect.

Im not trying to do a self pitty thing, I dont have pitty on people, sorry but i dont. Im just bloging whatever comes to my mind. My life has not been a very bad experience. I think that my life has been very good, despite all the fighting and all the shit i have been through. I try not to think about all the bad things in life. I try to put all the good things first. I am not one of those people that goes with the flow, I wish i did, but i dont.

Im still trying to process all the things that are happening in my life. Im greatful that my mom is here to be with me no matter what.
Im so happy that it is Friday.

About Me.

Hey. I'm Jennifer Rose. I have brown hair and blue eyes. I have a bubbly personality and im a very easy person to get along with. Im probably one of the nicest people you will ever meet. I am in a relationship and am very greatful to have him in my life. His name is Jesse Daniel Bly. My favorite color is blue and music is my life. I hate drama with a pasion. I am writing this blog beucase i thought that it would be fun to start bloging since i love to write. My hobbies are playing volley ball, haning out with friends and family, and earning money(: My heros are my boyfriend Jesse Bly, my mom Lori Miller, my step dad Doug Miller, and my littler brother Johnathan Rose. They all play a really big part in my life. They all keep me going in life.
I love learning about WWII. I love to debate things too. I worrie about things i dont need to worry about. Overall, I think im a pretty awesome person(: